Do you ever feel like you must be meant for something more?
I'm sure I'm not the only one who ever feels this way: who feels like she's not yet reached her full potential. For a long time now, I've been hoping and praying and believing with all of my heart that I am meant to do something spectacular in this world, and that I am not just another walking zombie, just another statistic. I know, I know, "everybody's special". Which is just a fancy way of saying that nobody is, to borrow a quote from The Incredibles.
I find it extremely difficult if not impossible to think that I just plopped down here on the Earth to go about my entire life working in an office, making money so I could keep a roof over my head and food in my stomach, and then dying. No lasting impact. No mark left. Nothing. And quite frankly, the thought makes me angry. It may sound selfish, but I want more than anything to mean something: to do something that nobody else could. I like the idea of having a "destiny", even if I'm not sure if I believe in that or not. It's a pleasant thought to mull over.
So think about it: do you ever feel this way? Like you know there is something deep down inside of you just waiting for the right moment to come out and catch everyone by surprise? Like you are needed more than you know by people that may not even know you? Maybe I just sound crazy and I'm not relating to anyone on this, but I like to think that I don't sound that way. I'm pretty sure other people can understand how I feel. After all, we're really not all that different.
What do you think it is that you are meant to do to leave your mark and make an impact? Who are you going to be and how will this effect other people? Thinking about the big questions like this can sometimes help straighten the world out, I think. If we all payed a lot more attention to how our attitudes and actions affected other people and a lot less attention to how we feel ourselves, then who knows, maybe people would stop complaining about the world and start changing it. Start making an impact.
I'm not sure what it is I'm meant to do, but I know I'm meant to do something. I have to believe it. Otherwise, what is all this for anyway?
Your mowing Grandpa's lawn for us, cheerfully going to work every day, keeping in touch with your sister, sharing an occasional meal with us, and just being around are making a difference in Dad's and my days. Maybe not a monumental thing to you, but it's the little things that we'll remember with great happiness. God is blessing us with you!
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